Wednesday, March 28, 2012

The Lazy One?

No more. I am blogging. And doing it now. Not much to say. I have been lazy and what is worse is I have been letting me be lazy.
Or maybe... maybe I feel like I am letting me be lazy but it's a diet or health issue, where my lack of energy is letting me be lazy and causing laziness in the first place. Let me explain. I lost 20 pounds after summer. I have been weight lifting and playing badminton this school year. I know right.. weight loss and weightlifting don't go hand in hand. Especially when one's weight is normal to begin with and they end up bordering on being underweight for their height and age. One ought to gain some weight. I don't think I am getting enough nutrition to accommodate these activities. Bloating and loss of appetite are not helping. How are you going to get nutrition when you are not eating because you feel full al lthe time? So a week ago I decided I am not going to let this happen to me. I did the much-needed research on my symptoms and found an appropriate solution. I decided to take Hajmola (yep, good ol' ayurvedic medicine), which I had stopped taking several years ago. I didn't even know we had some around the house. (Which Indian family doesn't?) It seemed to have worked. My appetite and bloating has returned to normal.

Or it maybe a psychological issue, relating to the changes in my environment, from a science environment to an artistic one. When I was in science, I would look forward to working on my art projects when I got home. After a whole day of biology, microorganisms, bacteria, metabolic systems and what not, the only thing on my mind would be how much time will I have to work on my project after doing the homework. Now when all my projects are art related, I am not looking forward to doing more art when I get home. I am just looking to relax and browse the internet and watch stupid Youtube videos.

Or both. Psychological issue causing the physical issue.

I don't know.

All I know is that I am not doing the things I want to be doing. I have not worked on the AOE 3 mod since Christmas break. I have not put as much effort into completing Hari Singh Nalwa, nor into completing the improved Baba Deep Singh.

Maybe rationalizing and explaining my laziness may not be the best solution. Maybe the best thing to do is to recognize the laziness or the excuses you make when you are lazy and to simply do the thing you are supposed to be doing.

Lazy? No more. I am drawing. And doing it now. Nothing is going to stop me.

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